Prepping 4 Puno

As I look at my fully packed duffle bag and the long list of last minute things to do there’s this knot in my stomach that’s far from being alleviated.  Probably a physical manifestation of my excitement, nerves, and fear of the unknown, this knot has been my only connection to the place I have been most excited about visiting, Puno. Although only an 8 hour drive away, it beauty has legends here in Urubamba, my family counts down the days (hopefully it’s their excitement for me to go, and not to get rid of me). Its been a long time since I’ve had anxiety, living in such a tranquil city but Puno, Lake Titicaca, and the prospects of more shopping have me filled with an exciting-like feeling that lends itself to anxiety more than excitement.

            With only hours left till departure I am finding myself somehow reflecting or overthinking on everything I’ve done, again, so far I’ve concluded I haven’t done enough, not yet. Dinner with my family now becomes this sacred moment, being 3000 miles away from my real family means extreme appreciation for these family-like moments, their oddly similar to my own family moments. Taking in the affection displayed, the endearment for the cultural-favorite dishes, and the conversation force me to the realization that while my experience with my new family is quite pleasant it will never be the same as the dynamic of my own family. I have never felt so immersed in such a familiar and casual setting, this newfound appreciation for my family indicated that Peru only holds more opportunities to broaden my perspective and augment appreciation for my lifestyle.

I am excited. That knot in my stomach seems to have imploded and its contents some sort of naturally occurring caffeine.  No, I’m not just awake I’m jittery, eager with this anxiety-excitement, camera in messenger I can only dream of the beauty this place holds, soon I can make my dream an actuality, a sight I will have sought. I said see you later to my best friend in Peru today, my host mom, that was probably the hardest part. I am excited to explore this new place and hope that all goes well with my luggage and travel. I feel confident I can protect my stuff but I’m also confident that if someone tries to get over on me…I’ll snap.  While I realize my preparation list is not 100% complete the essentials are, and for that I am grateful. Puno, I will see you soon.